27 October 2007
Today was my group having own production shoot at B06-30 for classroom scene and we gather our classmates and friends to act as extra and plus some of our own crew members. After all the setup of equipments for the shoot, my producer wan me to act as extra so I agreed.
In the shoot, I fall asleep as I never sleep well for four days as I was helping out with my senior in MMT class. In the end, my whole group was kana scolded by my lecturer as I never help my crew members to pack up the equipments and I was very angry with myself why I was fall asleep in production shoot. Stupid sia… I must kick off this habit so that when I go work or class, I will not scold because I was fall asleep.
Hope that this my lesson for me and I will not repeat this again forever.
12 October 2007
Today my crew members were having our shoot at my house and we about to wrap our shoot, Geng Tao call me to tell me that Jun Shen want to commit suicide because his aunt find out that he no test paper.
I was so worry until I can't continue my shoot and I got to rush my crew members to finish up the last scene so that I can rush down to find, my heart was going to pop out when this news broke off. Lucky all my crew members were so good that they hurry wrap up and so that I am able to rush down and see him.
When I reach the church where he were with his friends, I saw he like blaming himself and keep praying to god that what he did. My heart was totally gone when he did that because I never saw him keep blaming himself as he quite a cheerful person that what I know. This what I know it will happen when I graduated from Mayflower because I can't always be there with him.
After two years to bear his aunt's anger to him, finally he burst his anger.
Luckily he never went to commit suicide and he listen to opinion from people in the church and he become more cheerful and I can put down my heart but I still abit worry when he say he is going home because I don't know what will happen to him.
06 October 2007
YozZz... Today is my first piano lesson, I was very happy and excited because I waited for so long that learn piano since Sec 4. Now I'm able to learn piano, of cause very excited, can't wait to learn.
When I enter the piano class, the first thing that I learn was remember the tones. The tones were not easy to remember but I will still remember to the tones because I promise my parents to know how to play piano.
After the half and hour lesson, I think that the lesson was quite fast end because it was interesting and fun. I hope that I know how to play the piano.
01 October 2007
I saw him online in MSN, so I wanted to chat with him but when I saw his personal nick which appear in the window, he wrote a sentences that make me weird and is what he wrote, " I took the wrong step.. i said the wrong things.. i did the wrong stuff.. but now is the TIME to change and START ANEW!!"
What does he mean that he took wrong step or say wrong things or did wrong stuff? Is this true? In my heart, does he do wrong things that he don't wish to tell me or because that I didn't care about him? WHY? Is not fit to be his god father? Is it true? Or is it when he need me but I not around? Or this is a secret that I can't know? WHY? WHY? WHY? Or may be I too busy with my projects and I forgotten him? Tell me WHY?
Is it I'm at fault? Never care about him, only know how to care for elder daugther. What a failure man !!!! Or may be I should not step into his life? Is it because of me that he step wrong step? Should I leave him alone and let the time and world to change him? Should I? Or should I ask him or care about him? Should I? Give me a answer ! Give me a answer !
Hope that someone can tell me a answer.......... :'( :'( :'( :'(
