22 April 2007
I find out that after school reopen for few days, my friends have been snatch away and they don't want talk to me or have lunch with me. Suddenly felt very lonely like back to primary school time, no friend at all. Just a few friends, just a handful of them.
Is it just because quarrel with the senior student that all my friends have went to him and not even a true friend. Why must be like that...... Is it my fault to do two projects at one time. Or I become class chairperson, then no one like me. I have this feeling that I going to have no in my friends because all of them hate me.
I know that I was quite fierce when I was class chairperson because I will scolding or shout at my class, but this is just want to help the lecturers so that they can continue teach us. They think I like to shout at them, my throat will feel hurt, I also don't like to shout at class because I know that they will think have me the right.
HaizZz..... Is okay for I don't have much friends around me because they think I not friendly perosn, but I prove to them I will not shout at them and I will control my volume of my voice so that they will not think I'm so unreasonable person.
19 April 2007
Time fly really fast as all of us has graduated from Mayflower and has enter to ITE, long time never see some of my classmates as I miss those days. I still remember when we were in the secondary, we have alot of fun and I have quite a number of friends in my class and different class.
But now, I don't even have much friends in the class. I feel quite sad....... Not like last time, I can tell my sad and joy to my friends as all my trust friends went into different ITE and only Yasin is my school but I hardly talk to him because when we in secondary life time, we are not quite good friends until can share joy and laughter.
I was hoping that I can graduated from ITE and go to Poly and meet my friends over there cause most of my friends are going to poly and we decide to go to same poly to meet, although we all study different course but we can meet each other when we having break or lunch time or after lesson.
Hope that I can get good grade for my exam and all the way to two years in ITE.
17 April 2007
Why I must I kana say by other and why must be listen to other, why can't I have my on way of doing things. WHY !!! Is it that senior people have the right to must the choice for the juniors and all the words that the senior say, the junior has to listen.
I don't like to be control and I hate to been control but why there still some of the senior people still want to control my way of dealing things. Damn it....... Is it that if the junior never listen to senior, the senior has the right to scold the junior. Is it that if there is a problem between with the senior and junior, the blame will sure go junior although it is not junior fault. WHY ! WHY ! WHY ! WHY !
I know that some seniors' words can be hear because some time they gone though all the hard path which the junior is facing but some of the seniors like to make things more complicated and have to trouble everyone to solve this problem.
11 April 2007
So Stress man !!!!!! I was so stress and very tired after all this hard works for weeks, days, hours, minutes and seconds. I don't like this stress, it make me feel more tired and feel like want to end my life.
Really too stress until I can't breathe and my heart can't beat normal. But after watching the show, Smile Pasta, thinking one of actress, Cyndi Wang who normally say "Smile, Smile and the thing pass through." It was right because if you keep thinking that of the bad, you will not be success so I must smile and looking forward the beautiful day.
