25 March 2007
HaizZz...... As time goes by, all my Sec 2s have been promoted to Sec 3s and they going to be NCOs. Now all my Sec 3s think that I'm a liar and only how break promise person because I promise them that I going to be CI after I graduated and until now I did not come back to be CI.
But I really never break my promise as I tell my OC, Mr Iszal that I want to be CI and he has inform the HQ but is the HQ reject my application. Is it that my rank never up to their standard or I not fit to be a CI. WHY!!! Why every thing that I want, I can't get it?
Now, I think all my Sec 3 were sure hate me never go back to teach them or they are happy that I never go back because they think I not fit to be to teach them. I still remember that when I go back for campfire, I was trying to entertainment but they say that I very noise and not like other of my squads, so quite. I was so hurt when they say this word and I just pretend anything happen but in my heart was so totally hurt like one knife poke into my heart. So painful......
